Just thought I should do a quick post about some reflections on my mind now.

Reflection #1: Everything's Part of a Bigger Plan

I would say the shit has hit the fan for Japan. I don't reckon the world has seen any series of disasters so horrific: In the span of a week, the Japanese had to deal with two earthquakes, a volcano eruption, a tsunami, a nuclear meltdown and mounting death tolls.

I've always thought humans are dumb creatures, always trying to play the God card and living on grandiose delusions. Yet, look at how easily we are at the mercy of Mother Nature.

Esther has this theory that this is what makes our generation different. We belong to the generation of crushed dreams and distorted realities. Our life is bombarded by wake-up calls. The more we refuse to listen, the greater its form and impact.

Which I thought was helluva ironic. The previous generations couldn't fulfill their dreams because of war, political depressions, etc. So they worked hard to ensure the next generation would have a chance to realise their dreams. But right now, everything they worked so hard for is falling apart.

This begs the question: What are we working so hard for? If it's for power and wealth, then maybe it's time we stop to think about the things in life we're missing out on. Instead of living such a miserable life, we ought to take life as it comes. The good and bad in life comes as a package. Might as well learn to appreciate them both, right?

If anything, I've learnt not to question God's intentions. I've come to the realisation that everything that happens is part of a bigger plan. Most of the major events in our life are fated; the rest are uncharted and left to us to decide how we want it to be.

Reflection #2: Perfectionism

I feel somewhat bitter after realising this. That perfectionism is essential for survival in Singapore. Living in this country will only get more expensive and competitive each passing day. My perfectionism is bound to worsen after realising this, because I'll be so much harder on myself now. It's like declaring war with myself to ensure I'll be ahead of others.

Reflection #3: Some Things that I'll Never Understand

Yeah, I don't think I'll understand.

CHARMAINE CHEONG.

I’m a somebody and a nobody. I’m rational and emotional. I’m critical but I’m non-judgemental.

I like my things categorized by types and chronologically. I like taking photos to preserve the moments of my life. I like dystopian literature. I like reading Wikipedia articles at random. I like travelling to foreign lands and seeing the world. I like long conversations over good food. I like pop and classical music. I like guitars. I like cats. I like writing random, mushy letters and notes to the people important to me. I have a whole long list of things that I like, but you’ve got to get to know me better to know them all.